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A Look at Fear
2/22/2019 10:37:00 PM by: Zach Hunter

Fear is something all of mankind understands because at one point or another we have all felt it.  Though something that is natural it has a very nasty reputation and one that is arguably well deserved.  On its own fear is not a bad thing; it warns us to danger and helps us exercise caution. That is supposed to be the primary job of fear, so why do we look at fear negatively?

    While fear can help us it can also hinder us; we can freeze and find ourselves unable to act.  I don't just mean this in the sense of life threatening situations I also mean that in context of our lives and simply making a decision or taking a next step in our life walk.  We don't know what the consequences of our actions will be so we do nothing because at least we are familiar with our current situation.

    Fear can prevent us from forming relations (what if he/she doesn't like me) or taking an opportunity (leaving your current job for something life changing) or a myriad of other things.  These reasons and more contribute to our negative perception of fear. I would posit that this is a corruption of fear, of it's original purpose, we were not given a spirit of fear after all.

    This week I've been thinking about it after my pastor said something, "You just preached a sermon with no preparation in front of eight people.  It should be nothing to talk to one person about Jesus." He's not wrong and yet that does not make it any easier for me; any impulse to try and talk about Jesus usually instantly gets drowned by a flood of fears and the words tend to stick in my throat.  Why is this, why can I not just speak it, say it, preach it and should I be ashamed of this?

    For me the jury is out on the shame thing; we are to preach the gospel far and wide and I want to fulfill God's plan.  Yet despite my growing walk with Christ I still cannot banish the fear and constantly shaming myself about it is very counterproductive; it doesn't motivate me to do better but instead tells me I can't do it and I might as well give up.  Clearly giving up is not an option; as I said I want to fulfill His plan and to be honest I doubt He would let me give up, he would come after me until I said "Ok God, I got it, I'll keep trying."

    Here is what I think; God is the only solution to my problem.  I am terrified of failing when He asks me to do something but once I start He puts the fear into the background and I can only concentrate on doing what He has asked me.  It doesn't keep the fear from raising it's head whenever I am asked to do something but it does allow me to press on despite the fear.

    One positive is that we are forced to rely on God and not on ourselves because if I had to rely on myself I'd turn into a puddle of jelly and nothing would happen.  I hope someday that I have enough confidence in both God and what he has given me that I am easily able to say "Yes, I will do that," instead of "But what if?" The only way I can see that happening is to keep spending time with Him and following His prompts.

 

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